I don’t want to write this article, but I also want to lessen my pain. In case you want to scold me after reading this article, you are very much welcome.
To be frank, I am not a jovial person. I am not open to anyone. I do act as if I am a guy with very good character. I don’t know why. I used to do this from my childhood. I don’t see this as a problem till now. But now I am expected to be nice with all my relatives, who were nice to me. Expectations leads to a lot of trouble. In my life it is playing a heinous act.
Being depicted as a “good boy” amongst the relatives is really nice once. Now it seems, “What is the point?”. Especially when I don’t mind them anymore. I don’t have an interest to be in contact with my relatives. But I am forced to do so. In Indian culture, we think we have to interlinked with every relative of us. Basically we have to act, even though when we don’t really like someone. Interest never really matters.
I decide my actions. I never let anyone influence my decisions. I like being independent basically.
All I want now is to be independent. I want to be alone. I don’t need anyone. I can still survive. Without this damn pain. Let everyone get out of my way. It may seem rude, but to me I am frank. I don’t want anyone else to influence my happiness. I am in loads of pain now. I am not able to concentrate. If I have a chance to go somewhere, where I am very much independent, I will be going ahead, isolating myself. Awaiting that beautiful moment.
I am writing this article sitting in my office all alone, with pain in my heart. I don’t know how to avert this pain. So I started to write.
machi.. i think it s all bcz of sara?!!!
that’s diff.. I’ll come up with that later.. 😉
Life is a bundle of joy sorrows and surprises arun
wat we get we hate and what we love we never get..
Its the real life….
yes that’s right.. but for adjusting to that, I need a lot of strength..
whether this is beacuse u didnt find a girl or dont know how to kill the time when u r alone ??
Being alone for quite sometime .. wat do u in office night time makes u more stressful life .. when thinks r not going in right path this feeling happen ..
u want to be alone means .. no frendz also or no relatives ??
Read this same blog after 3 years u will laugh .. every one has the same feeling at some point ..
Good article but many lie in that .. u r a jovial person , friends including girls 😛 who were with u like u 🙂
Dont try to be alone .. think its time for u to start a family 🙂 😛
It is better to leave the post ambiguous(friends or relatives).. This itself is an indication of the fear of not expressing our thoughts..
This is not at all related to girls machi.. And you know that.. 😉
yes da .. am making fun of u .. i know that its not abt girls..
it about a feeling wat comes to us when nothing is done by us .. daily routine things .. nothing goes in our away ..
sitting idle for one hour can be done , one day can be , one week , it will be easy ..
but more than a year its hard ..
thing of our college .. we busy Bee there we momnet we would be doing something … but after college thing how many thing u hv done new .. its like old tape recorder .. thats when u might get this feeling .. one u get a new path in anything u can see u will lose this alone feeling .. 🙂